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Just try

Sunday, April 23, 2017

___After remembering my child dream about a brave crane man, I’ve decided 10 years later, no matter what, no matter the way, to get in contact with him. The main goals ? Talk with him and learn about his work. Did my dream reflect the reality ? I’ve tried to understand why life got in the way.

The first step was to know what’s going on in the field. It was quite easy, some construction sites took place just next to the Rivelt Academy.

To reach my goal, I’ve first talked to a worker passing by. Straight away, he made me realize that everyone was very busy over here. From this moment, I’ve understood one thing : it’s going to be more complicated that I’ve thought.

I spent one day asking questions to several workers, but none of them had time to answer me. It was my first failure.

Then, I tried to figure out something else. Maybe I should have tried to get in contact directly with the crane man !

But how to approach someone that busy ? I had to find a way.

I’ve spent a few days, walking around, observing the crane man throught the Academy’s Windows.

While I was looking at him, I was wondering what he his seeing ? How could I capture his attention ?

As the site was in front of the Rivelt Academy, the crane couldn’t have missed the school’s walls.

Therefore, I came back to my class room and I start thinking.

After putting a few ideas on the paper, I’ve found the one.

I had to draw the crane man’s attention on something special, something that he couldn’t not see : a big sign just in front of him.

The goal, still the same : capt his interest, but moreover, make him fell special, like the man in my dream.

In order to do that and stand for his work propeply, I’ve decided to picture him as a super hero.

The sign had to be very clear : CRANE MAN, I’m a fan ! Let’s talk about your superpowers !

Sign for the Crane Driver

A few days later, I heard some of my classmates, speaking about the crane man, who finnaly got my message.

Unfortunetely, I wasn’t in Amsterdam at this time, and when I came back, the crane man was gone.

During severals days I was wondering what should I do next. Try to talk to him again ? Find an another way to get in touch with him ? I started to think that I’ve missed my chance.

Against all expetations, I heard about the crane man throught the social networks on the school page. He actually post a picture of the sign from his crane. I couldnt expect more !

I didn’t fail, I actually got in contact with him !

I’ve learnt a lot about him and his work, just obsevering it. I succeded to deliver a message, without directly talking to him.

This is the very proof that when you’re trying hard, and when you really want, you can do something.

Even if it was not your first thought.

cren driver's picture

___This experience gave me the desire to spread this message to people. Telling them that afterall,  the aim doesnt matter, trying does.

To do that, I was looking for something that always make me think about trying.

I thought about a dice. Each time you roll it, you’re trying to do a specific number. It’s actually a real tool of the idea of trying.

For instance, you’re using dices to get out of jail when you’re playing Monopoly.

I’ve been thinking about how could I change the dice in order to erase the proper aim of rolling it : never reach the specif number you wanted.

Erasing the numbers ? Changing the size ? The shape ?

I got the idea to create a specific dice, a dice which never stops Rolling. From there, you’ll be rolling it only in order to try the object, without directly knowing where it’s going to lead you.

The original size of the dice was important for me because of its pratical aspect. It needs to be small, easy to grap, to catch and to carry. I also wanted something playful.

Then the bouncing ball poped up in my mind ! I thought about playing without a goal. You just try it for what it is. However, as far as we know it, you can get bored prety easiley with bouncing balls, because of the repetive action. This made me create something that can change the first aspect of the ball and show the different steps along the trying process.

From now, the idea it’s to create something that can capt people’s attention in the street, and make them start to try something with it. Give them a gift which is actually not the ball as they think, but the action of trying.

I now have to find a pratical way to do it. Creating a layer around the ball could keep the track of the different attempts.

I first thought about tape, but the ball was not bouncing anymore after being wrapped.

About Velvet, tracks were not that clear and the ball didnt bounce enough.

I’ve noticed that sometimes on the public benches, you can find some painting missing, It’s the wear, due to people, sitting a lot at this specific place.

Then I thought about putting a layer of paint around the ball. It will brake it step by step.

 The painting missing on the ball will show a pattern. Each of them will be different and will represent the track of experiments during the day.

try project Vondelpark

Now I’ve found my object, I still need to figure out how people will face it.

First I created a small box looking like a boardgame. Inside ? 4 balls and the rules of the game.

Nevertheless, it didn’t work, because people just had to follow the instructions, without thinking of the idea of trying several times.

I’ve wanted to let people the choice. If they want to try it, why, how ?

I built a small public facility, where balls were free to access. That way, people can choose to pay attention or not.

With this making, I offered people to do whatever they wanted. No matter what they did with the balls, each choice was a good one.

This project became a free gift to people, without giving them something tangible.

Afterall, the experience itself is the most valuable.


Just try, click on it !


Saturday, April 22, 2017


vision tekst 2

An Undiscovered World


I always felt this inner urge for adventure and to built crazy machines like airplanes. I never thought I would ever be capable of doing so, so I never tried to realize these dreams. Until I found out about Joost Conijn. He’s an artist that builds his own airplanes, cars and other vehicles. I got this assignment for an artproject in which I had to meet a person that I look up to, so I tried to contact him. This ended up into an email contact drama. He was to busy and had no interest in meeting me. Then I tried to meet with two other, but with no result.


Eventually, I thought to not meet an individual, but to go to specific place in which people exist. For me it was then important to spontaneously meet a person and not having an emailcontact introduction. I went to a church. Religion, or in this case christianity, is such an undiscovered way of perceiving the world for me. It feels so distant and isolated from what I think is the ‘truth’. The main idea was to talk to a person in a confessionbooth to talk about my ‘rage’ that nobody cared to meet me or help me with my project.


The day I went the church was closed and the confessionbooths were out of use, but a small chapel was open. Two ladies opened the door and one of them guided me to the chapel.


She told me about what her relation was to religion,  about the future of religion and the people that come there. She said that religion resembles the inner truth to existence. People who believe, are people that have felt a lot of pain in there life or people are simple raised that way. Pain brings people back to the ground, it makes people see the light and realize what’s really important. She says that people nowadays also have to much distractions, people shroud themselves with fun and give importance to things that really differ from what she says is important in life.


Our conversation was so honest. I realized that if I were to talk in a confessionbooth about certain things, it would almost feel like I’m mocking the people that actually go to a church. Talking to this woman, made me realize that there was far more than just believing, it was an undiscovered world.


I thought the element of pain was something to work further with and for me after the talk religion in a modern society also became an interesting subject. What makes people nowadays believe and how is religion holding up. The interior of the chapel was very modern and recently renovated with unnatural white lighting. One lamp was broken and blinked the whole time, for me that felt like a metaphor for religion in a modern society. Also the whole ritual churches have of lighting a candle for good fortune inspired me. Especially because wax is also known as a material with healing abillities, it made me think of the people in pain that decide to devote their lives to christianity.


For me it felt obvious to make a lamp. My first idea was to make a lamp out of wax in the shape of a candle. After some feedback I realized that I wasn’t using the wax in a way that I could fully explore the material. I had an idea to make a lamp and using wax was just to live up to certain aesthetics I imagined in my mind. So making a lamp was to limiting.


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I started rethinking what my experiences were going to the church. Looking back the aspect of suffering and this isolated community of people that kind of live outside of society were the strongest memories. I started working with a big chunck of wax and started carving into it with a spoon, it felt saying a prayer over and over again, a road of suffering… Eventually this weird religious object came out of it, looking like a plate. After this I started making objects that resembled a kind of ritual, but in a way that I used very recognisable objects and used the wax to melt them together and creating a totally new function.


Then came the idea to go back to my startingpoint, church, to make my objects interact with what made me make them. The voices in the video are recordings of collective praying by the people (just ladies) in the chapel. It is said that jesus is present in this chapel, they were singing directly to jesus.


Click -> The Ritual


Dutch style aquarium – Criteria of beauty

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Step 0 | Question: What is beauty?


What is beauty? How can it be defined?

It would be obscure question which does not have a clear answer. A topic in my first art theory class in the semester was just about this. The first chapter in Cynthia Freeland’s book, Art Theory: A Very Short Introduction was used there and it also reffered to aesthetic judgement of Kant. It is never simple subject for me since there would be enormous space to argue.

But a couple months later, I happened to think what is called “style” might have its own clear answer.

This idea made me feel a little bit better.


Step 1 | Dutch style aquarium has appeared as unknown territory


Work by Takashi Amano, the founder of the style “Nature aquarium”
When I got an assignment of exploring unknown territory for design, I never thought about such thing. As I need to meet a professional inspiring me to go in his/her context, I was simply looking for someone who I can reach to in the present Netherlands. In my mind, a specific genre of aquarium, Dutch style aquarium, came earlier than an idea of who to choose.

It is because making an aquarium was my hobby which I got interested in a few years ago in Japan. This aquarium is specifically called “Nature aquarium” in which you can create an “aquascape” resembling nature landscape by putting growing aquatic plants, stones, wood and little creatures like tropical fishes or shrimps in your tank.

Unfortunately I had to leave mine there when I moved to Amsterdam but I still also had a little expectation that I can see a different type of aquarium. I had already heard the word of “Dutch style aquarium” even in Japan. Now is it time to explore it here, in the Netherlands?


Step 2 | The Answer from Dutch style aquarium


A work from category of Dutch aquascape in AGA contest 2015
There are two kinds of major styles of aquascaping. One is called Nature aquarium in which I had been interested since before, and the other is called Dutch style aquarium, the oldest style becoming popular during the 1930’s in the Netherlands. The former has become the global mainstream since being established in Japan in early 1990’s, but actually it came after the latter.

To know more about Dutch style I tried to meet one of judges for a category of Dutch aquascape in an international aquascaping contest. Unfortunately it was not realized. Instead, I still could get a lot of information on the internet.

Though its most simple feature to say would be that it does not suggest a use of hardscape material like stones or wood, the most interesting finding for me was its very detailed rules. It is very much specific.

It requires;
- well grown and defined grouping plants
- a small space between the groups
- clearly different height between the groups
- more than 3 plant species per foot (foreground / middle / background)
- terracing to convey depth
- rich contrasts (made by color variation, leaf height, texture)
- a focal point (emphasized by a red or large plant / by the effective use of the “Rule of Thirds” / only one focal point in tanks 36” or less)
- more than 70% of the floor planted
- imaginary streets / pathways of plant

You would also find that contest’s judgments are always given from a objective viewpoint of how each works fulfills the criteria like above or not.

In my mind, these were immediately connected to the question, how aesthetics can be judged, which was for the theory discussion before. If it would be the guidelines of aesthetic, could it be applied to even other things?

Then, I decided to try to make “beautiful” compositions by appropriating these criteria for totally different things.


Step 3 | Then, what can the criteria fit?


The first cutout with images from “SimCity” app

It was not easy to choose the objects for the composition.

I think I was too much caught by an idea of choosing a specific motif which needs arrangements as well as aquascapes do. What came in my mind was, for example, still life painting, architectures or city planning, and then I actually tried to make some 3D collages with these motives.

After some struggles, however, my idea eventually reached to autonomous graphic compositions without any motif. It would be interesting to use things without any restriction than to focus on a specific objects, since it has more expandability. What is more, I could not imagine the result and it simply made me curious.

How much universal could these criteria become? I wanted to make some studies to examine it.


Step 4 | Interpretation of aquascape language


To go on this experiment, I deliberately applied some points below choosing from many to my practices.

- Contrast by colors
the use of color highlights
black and white, green and red, positive and negative…

- Contrast by textures
fluffy, flat, glossy, mat…
photo prints showing deferent textures

- Contrast by shapes
curvy and strait, circles and angles
same shapes but in different size and height

- Focal point
A focal point provided by the use of above techniques
Application of the rule of thirds

- Imaginary pathways
Emphasis of the perspective


In addition to these rules, I found that aquariums are something in-between 3D and 2D. I mean it is actually three dimensional but its layouts are always considered from a fixed viewpoint. Traditionally tanks show only one front side and the others are totally covered. Also, photography always has an important role to show it. I put a camera based on which I started each layouts.


Step 5 | A result


During the experiment I’ve already found that the goal of this project would not be to make an finished image but to try a lot of compositions as studies. What kind of results can I get from it? Is it “beautiful”? These kinds of things are not completed in short time but would be just a starting point of pursuits.

Does it still continue?


// Tailor Made Construction

Friday, April 21, 2017



In 2010, when I was still in high school, I discovered a minimalist blog named Love Aesthetics. Ivania Carpio is the creator of this blog about fashion, photography and do-it-yourself projects, all with a consistent and unique style. I have been an active follower ever since. The appearance of this blog is ‘quality over quantity’ based; high-end fashion items are present as well as a healthy amount of handcrafted items, that are no less in relevance.


Last year the lifestyle brand Aetelier (short for ‘Love Aesthetics Atelier’) was established. Few designs of this brand, that carries the same ideals as the blog, are sold online. The selection includes one bag in two available colors, a notebook with exposed binding and a concrete-look blanket. An ‘under construction’ element is the self-explained signature of the brand. This refers to a concept of a creative space with open possibilities.


Over the years this blog and its branches have been influencing the forming of my own personal style and self-development. To this day I keep up to date with the blog via social media. This is the reason why I wanted to meet the woman behind Love Aesthetics. Unfortunately our agendas did not collide within the given timespan. Instead of meeting Ivania in person, I chose to let one of her designs speak on behalf of her.


I took the Aetelier ‘Flat Fold Bag’ to be the mediator for this design assignment. High quality materials as leather, stainless steel and acrylic tube are used in the design. The signature element is found in the two hardware clasps that make the chain a continuous loop. The exterior of the bag is left visually clean by placing the zippers on the inside. This makes that the bag is a contemporary translation of Ivania’s need to keep this bag very minimalistic.

wieke 1

This analysis resulted in a starting point for my design; it was now clear that I wanted to make a bag tailored to my own requirements. To have an insight in these requirements for a bag, I had to evaluate the bags I currently own and the items I wanted to fit in the bag. It became clear immediately that all of these bags and items are black. This is a result of my preference to dress all black, my carried accessories are no exception to this rule.

wieke 2

This preference, in combination with my forgetful nature, often causes a problem for me. Let’s say I am on a train and want to check if I did not forget my wallet at home. When I open my bag, I am looking for an optical conformation of the presence of this wallet. Instead, because of the black on black, the outcome is panic by visual confusion. In this case the initial scare is counteracted by touch; a quick pinch in the bag will tell if I am in trouble or not.

wieke 3

This haptic perception is the basis of the redesign. To amplify this existing movement all the items were given an own tailor made pouch. This way, all my valuables can be recognized by touch. The pouches are connected by a hardware clasp. The clasp binds the pouches as a whole and, when a strap is attached to the clasp, the bag can be easily carried. Alterations to the bag are easily achieved; pouches can be taken off or put back on, to the desire of the wearer.


wieke 4

After the first prototype was made, it was tested and evaluated. The basic shape and function of the bag were right but the haptic element loses strength when, upon first contact with a pouch, it is not immediately clear what corresponding item is touched. To avoid this confusion the haptic element needed to be extended. This was done by adding a specific material to a pouch that complements it content. A piece of leather was added to match my wallet.

wieke 5


The interim conclusion for this design process is positive. In the mean time I have tested this design approach on the items of my classmate Yuri. Her items and requirements are different mine but the result is a tailor made lunch bag for her bento box and chopsticks. Both this lunch bag and the bag for myself are substantially different than conventional bags. I think interesting steps are made end I would like to continue to work on this project.

wieke 6

wieke 8





Designing the surface research + Grayson Perry research

Friday, April 21, 2017






logo_HNI+ADE_lijn_ZW_D                                                   drops-landscape

Dick Huppes                                       

Class G Basic Year 2017                                                                                                                                                                




Research book: ”I like to sit on a bamboo chair, a bamboo chair is made of aluminium”.



Last Februari Henk’s Groenendijks’s design class went to ‘’Het nieuwe instituut’’ museum in Rotterdam to the exhibition: ‘’designing the surface’’. Unfortunately, i was sick for quite some time, so i could not join. But it is nice that my classmates and Henk gave me a little book about this exhibition. A quite extraordinary one at the first sight. In a quasi-poetic way various issues about the contemporary approach, meaning and usage of the surface were described. The book relates this topic to its importance within design in contemporary design and how it might influence the future.

I chose to write about the book :’’I like to sit on a bamboo chair, a bamboo chair is made from aluminium.’ I use this ‘’bamboo chair’’ as an example of what discussion it can evoke. It is only the title of the book, the chair might not exist. but I find it a quite interesting example. But, since I know nothing more about this bamboo chair, i have to assume something to make its artificial existence a little more concrete. I am declaring that this aluminium chair has a bamboo print, and that is why the designer is calling it: ‘’a bamboo chair made of aluminium’’.

In the book, the topic “surface’’ is described in 6 acts which are explaining different levels of “the surface’’. I’m going to relate the six acts to ‘’the bamboo chair made of aluminium’’ written in the title of the book. I’ll give a short explanation of every chapter and then I am going to relate every chapter to ‘’the bamboo chair’’.



ACT I In which condition is only skin deep

In this act, the main topic is the decay of the acid fountain in the gallery.  The acid fountain is throwing acid which evokes a chemical reaction between the material that makes it possible for the acid to be thrown. This chemical reaction evokes a colourful spectacle because of the reaction between the acid and the material. The material exist out of different kinds of metal. Each piece of metal gives another chemical reaction. Slowly the metal will be eaten by the acid.  The surface changes as it is the fundament of its destroyer, the acid. but because the surface changes, we can read its true conditions because of the different colourful chemical reactions between the acid and the metal.  


Related to the bamboo chair: The bamboo chair is made of aluminium. But the designer is calling it a bamboo chair. Just by adjusting its surface, a whole discussion about the object can arise. How can one sell a bamboo chair as a bamboo chair while it is made of aluminium?

Just like the acid is changing the surface and  shows the conditions of the metal to show its differences by a chemical reaction. The conditions of the aluminium can be questioned by adjusting its surface. Questions such as: much conditions between the aluminium and the bamboo are in common. If the designer is able to produce a bamboo print upon the chair so it appears to be a bamboo chair and a spectator cannot see the difference between ‘’real bamboo’’ and ‘’fake bamboo’’ and beside that at least one important archetype is represented ‘’being lightweight’’, can we than call the chair a bamboo chair?.



ACT II In which all that glitters is not gold

This act is about the detailed finishing of the material by editing or adjusting the surface, which appeals to our attraction to the object. In this state of adapting the surface it is possible to bring in a certain authenticity to the object/product.  

Bamboo Chair:

The bamboo chair could simply have been an ordinary aluminium chair. But fact is, there are thousands of aluminium chairs on this world. As a designer, you are often making things for the commercial market. If you are producing a chair, you want to make an original one. Because thousands of chairs have already been made. Also aluminium chairs, and also bamboo chairs. You want your fingerprint to be effective, you want your expenses to be low. Fact is that an aluminium chair is highly sustainable. You can easily place it outside in all weather.  You might like the material bamboo more because of its appearance, but it is less sustainable than aluminium. So, you mix them up, so you have archetypes of both products you like, and at the same time you have made a very original chair that no one made before only by adjusting the surface with a bit of paint. Cheap, and effective. Perhaps even the first bamboo chair made of aluminium in the whole world!


Act III In which nothing is as it sees

The third act assumes that an imitation can actually optimize the essence of a material. It can be an honouring of the material.  

Bamboo chair:  This topic I already described a bit in earlier chapters. If you are smart as a designer you can choose different archetypes of different materials. Like the chair is an ode to bamboo while certain archetypes of the bamboo are used, and some are even improved. You might call this bamboo chair a better version than a conventional bamboo chair .



ACT IV in which paint takes the power back


How can paint be a revolting, efficient, quick and direct material to express revolutionary thoughts? In the book, there is an example given of revolutionaries who are using paint to change their environment rapidly. It is a radical and highly efficient way of changing the rapidly surface. Anyone can do it.


Bamboo chair:  As I described in act II. Paint can be a highly effective and radical way to change an object. The surface lays on the outside of an object, and that’s why you see the surface at first. When you change the surface, you also change the interpretation of a spectator.  



ACT V In which to come clean, is a home truth


This act describes how we consort our fears by adjusting the surface. Fears such as the fear of decay.


Bamboo Chair: This has also a lot to do with my explanation of Act II. While making a more sustainable version of the bamboo chair we are actually improving it to prevent the object against a human fear: decay. That’s a certain fear that is directly visible for the consumer. But what the consumer might forget is that bamboo is much more environmentally friendly than aluminium. You can buy a new bamboo chair one a year for 30 years in a row, and you still have a smaller environmental footprint than buying a aluminium bamboo chair. So, what kind of decay is important for the consumer? What does this bamboo chair tells us about our relation to design and the world? Does it mean that we just want to feel comfortable as individuals? And we often forget about the impact that comes with this comfort?  


Here a small bit of a serie of artworks from Lou Mouw who studies at  UDK berlin. Its about the unsustainable conditions of aluminium towards the environment

(I found out that he is not right…. This reactor was located in zeeland. The first one was build in doodewaard, in order to test nucliair energy. ) But still. Aluminium is just really bad for our environment. Really bad…


Act VI In which the future is superficial


In this chapter, the author describes an artwork of Anish Kapoor (Mumbai 1954) . He is using a material which is considered as ‘’the blackest black on earth’’ while it is absorbing 99.5% of light which reflects on the material. In this article (sorry,it is in dutch) a journalist is visiting an artwork made from this material that Anish Kapoor is exhibiting during the last Dokumenta in Kassel. He describes his experience during this exhibition. He tells that he entered the gallery space and saw Kapoor’s work: A big black cloth in a square share on the ground. So at the first sight he thought that this was just a version 1000000 of Malevich ‘’Black Square’’. But, with a little more information you can understand that this black square of Kapoor is actually an interesting challenge to Malevich black square. What lies under the surface is technology. Not visible at first sight, but if you shine a lazer light on it, you’ll be able to question: Who made the blackest black? Kapoor of Malevich?



Bamboo Chair: What lies into and under the surface? Is there anything more to discover? Can we actually see what lies under the surface? People can sell us anything, but if we really want to know what we buy, we have to take a closer look and maybe do some research. Perhaps we cannot recognize any difference between this bamboo chair and ‘’a real one’’ because this ‘’fake design’’ might seem to appear very real.  We don’t know what is happening in the lab of the designer, and we don’t know what future technological inventions will bring us. So we should stay sharp. But, is it actually possible to know everything from what you consume? There is just too much to research…





Two weeks after we went to the Stedelijk to visit the Design collection. In order to choose an artwork of interest and than relate it to one of the Acts of the book. I chose the work ‘’Floating world’’ of Grayson Perry. I want to relate this artwork to the last Act i described: ‘’In which the future is superficial’’.



Grayson Perry, floating world.

 At the first sight this pot appears to be a cute ceramic pot that you could recognize from your grandparent’s home collection. Conventional in form, colour, and usage of glace. But if you come closer to the pot, you might be shocked by the images of car accidents, penises and dead people. It is extraordinary to explore this kind of images on a cute pot like this.

You can recognize a controversial aspect in the title of the pot called: ‘’Floating world’’ which refers to: Ukiyo-e. Ukiyo-e (literal translation: floating world ) is a genre of woodblock print and painting technic originating from the Japanese art

tradition. In this genre the hedonistic lifestyle of the high-class from the 17th till the 19th century is pictured. The high class decorated their homes with these images of their high society lifestyle. Perry makes a link to this subject. The artist is referring to the original Ukiyo-e style in which artworks are functioning as decorative pieces. Perry’s work could been seen as traditional and decorative from a distance. You cannot see what is going on at the surface from a far distance. But if you get really close, you can see the provoking images. By then you see that you are not watching a conventional piece of decorative ceramics, but something that reacts on this. As a platform for protest.

The Ukiyo-e is showing the nice high class lifestyle, and this piece suddenly displays violence, pain, and sex. We have to know that we have to take a closer look to designed objects to understand its origins. If you don’t do this, you might risk that you give you grandma a ceramic pot full of penises for her 80th birthday. A fun anecdote to tell: My own grandmother was a very conservative woman. In the 60’s with the summer of love and all the hippies my father had long hair and my grandmother really disliked this. She disliked anything that had anything to do with hippies. But then one day, when she was in a more emphatic mood, she gave my father a tie-dyed t-shirt because she thought he would like it. But what she never knew, there was a text and an image pressed on the t-shirt, not easy to read though: ‘’save water: shower with a friend’’ , and four feet wrestling.  




retrospective contemplation

Friday, April 21, 2017

click 4 interview with Max Glader (b.1996, Stockholm)


Thursday, April 20, 2017


I think they live differently. In a different world than mine. They look differently. They do not chase after things that capitalism offers.They live within a concept that is rooted from ages ago.

The concept is centered around the immaterial. It is real for them. I would like it to be real for me too, but somehow it does not work. I wonder how it works for them. I think they are happy to have a one focus in life. I feel that my mind is out of focus.

I wonder if in a contemporary society one is able to find a grounding. If one has to separate himself to find a clear focus, in order to create a space inside thoughts that are often dominated by information from the outside world.

By separating themselves they fill the space with the highly structured concept, that occupies their lives from the very morning till the very evening. I resist to analyze the concept, but I rather focus on their inner state. Which seems to be empty form overdose of various forms of information. They have one form of information that can guide them through all.

  Saša Karali? / Square



That information is received in a condition of silence. They said that the noise of the world disturbs the signal. And a closure helps to cultivate it,          creating a room for exercise.






Emptiness is the inner state of things. Things around us are weightless. They do not have any meaning, only our mind creates meaning for them. Objects are silent and transparent.  We are surrounded by space and we float in it.



 silent book copy



Space is a continuum. It gently touches objects not affecting them. If we would like to, we could see just space around us instead of objects. We could see  negative shapes in objects instead of seeing objects themselves.



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The Kleptomania

Thursday, April 20, 2017

I started knitting again.

I’t seem I have found pleasure in monotonous work.

Gradually I have become quite go for it.

Two times front, one behind, two times front, one behind.

My fingers do the work for me.

Two times front, one behind.

I knit and knit.

The hours fly by and I levitate with them.

I never knitted with wool like the common kitter. My wool is not shaggy and doesn’t scratch my cheek.

Even though I am pretty new in the field of knitting, I knit with thoughts.

The thoughts are merged into one another and create this perfect third.

Two times front, one behind.

They create an invisible blanket that I warm myself under.

The blanket has a few holes, some irregularities and even some loose ends here and there.

But I made it myself.!

And if I do say so myself, It actually looks  quite nice.


As I sit there and let your fingers glide through the fine material: two times front, one behind, two times front, behind. I discover a piece of blanket is missing.

It was stolen from me.

I immediately get more thoughts out.

Suddenly more and more of the blanket starts to  disappear. Bit by bit.

The sweat coming from behind.

Two times front, one behind,

I knit faster.

Two times front, one behind.

I try to bring more thoughts out, but soon there are no more of the good ones left.

So thoughts about him, slipping into the pattern.

And wupti! Just as suddenly as he becomes a part of the pattern, it disappears.

Faster and faster I knit now!

Two times front, one behind, two times front of a rear!

Sweat rushes forward and my fingers are cramping.

I panic! All of my work!

All the good thought in my blanket!


And the last bite was taken.

With sore fingers, empty of any good thoughts, I sit back, disappointed.

Saddened and Deprived of my own thoughts.


Then I remember that I probably used some of the thoughts about him in my blanket.


You see,

I’ve got a new friend.

The Celptomania is his name.

It’s probably him!

He’s a predator for my thoughts.

But there’s no other way.

So I short the thoughts I have left, although they not all good.

And start over.

But this time with a different tactic.

Because I’m smarter than him!

Just wait! I think to my self and start my new blanket with this thought.

Orange see-through

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

yo yo yo

The word that represents my intention is “cool”.

The photo above is a source of inspiration.


I aimed to get knowledge from people who achieved something in their life. I chose two bloggers important to media community. Internet gives great opportunities for the users, sometimes it makes people famous. I guess we all have followers nowadays.  The question for me is how is it to be a media guy and what are their secrets? So I have decided to ask for some kind of information that would give me a better understanding of certain processes. ( How it is made? How does it work? How did you get there? etc )

 For different reasons none of the meetings did not occur.  They were too busy answer my questions IRL although social media was limiting for them as well. So I had no one  to rely on anymore except for myself. I continued working on my own and came up with this:


Glasses with great visual effect which is produced by an optical illusion. It gives me feeling of organised chaos and kaleidoscopic experience which works best on a sunny day!


I used it for photography experiment to combine several plans in one image. It is great to see these images knowing they are not edited! This makes me want to continue working with that medium…

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I have repeated it a 1000 times

Wednesday, April 5, 2017


ajax stress proposal image

I met him. I ordered a coffee, thee and beer. He only drank thee. I was probably to enthusiastic.
‘Now you have had everything’, he said. He had sweet eyes that looked shy to me. Charming almost. Most.
‘I never really like to meet people’. We laughed, we just met.
‘No I mean, now it has a purpose, so I know what to do, what to expect. But when I meet with friends it does not have a purpose. It really stress me out. I cannot focus on anything the day before I am going to meet with someone. All I think about is that meeting, so now I kind off stopped meeting my friends, I only see good friends’.

I was confused I laughed.

This remark of him kept coming back in my head and a few days later I realized that I had the same. Not as present as he had it, but sometimes, all I am is stressed, just because I am going to meet a friend. Or the appointment keeps repeating itself in my thoughts, I have run through everything that could happen.

No surprises. 

I have a respond to every situation that could interest me. I will not think about the boring ones, my reaction on boring situations will be improvised.
But I know that it is a bit useless to thing about everything that could happen, or that could be said to me, because the people I am with will not respond the way they do in my mind and they are also not as busy with me as I am.
The situation will mostly be of no meaning, just people being together, but nothing really happens. I know that these moments are also important, but it are not crucial moments. My reaction will only matter at some moments.
It are those moments that are crucial, that I meet new people, make friends, start a fight, love someone, break up with someone, never say goodby, run away to come back, fall of my bike in front of you, laugh about their jokes.

So even though I already know that it is not that useful to think about all the social situations I might be in someday, I keep hoping that thinking about potential situations will cause that these thoughts will actually happen. In my mind social situations, are more interesting than they most of the time will be in real life.
But, when a situation in real life ís interesting, it is exceeding. It are those moments when I learn the most.

Surprises are unthinkable.

‘I freak out when I accidentally meet someone. I have no idea how to react’. I tried to keep my face neutral. Are that not the meetings that change my days?
When I accidentally meet someone, go with him or her and learn? Learn how to actually react to people, not just like I do in my mind but like I do when the environment, other people and my feelings of that moment also influence the situation? When I am alive, and experiencing how it is to be alive, apart from breathing and eating? The non-crucial situations, are the situations where I don’t really feel alive. I am there, of course, I react, I do what I have to do. But the crucial moments are the moments where I am learning, experiencing, making, achieving, failing, living.

One night, this real life social interactions were just like they are in my head. There where a lot of people that I knew, vaguely but still. When I got bored of a situation, I went to another, new people, new reactions. New me?  I remember her, climbing on the building, making photos of me, looking to her, forgetting that this was a situation where I had to react or think about how to react. Naturally. We danced, kissed. I even got her phone number. Still not being aware that this was a situation that I had repeated a hundred times in my mind. It was that night that I learned new things about myself. These things bring me further in the things I do.

Surprises come to me.

Just like the situation were I met him. Without him I would not have known this about myself. Or at least I would not have thought about it so much. His shy looking eyes make more sense now. His charming look makes me curious to him, but I know that it is not likely that we see each other soon.
I can prepare every situation in my head, but I cannot know how it will actually go, there are so much situations. It are the situations when I am not aware that it is a situation that are crucial. I am open to what is happening. No stress.


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